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Brother.

“Nothing would make me happier.”

Hearing those words from my oldest brother…I never quite understood how much he loved me until now.

He and I had a minimalistic relationship when I was young. 14 years difference in age is definitely a contributor. It wasn’t until I requested his presence at my high school graduation, that our sibling relationship began to flourish.

He and I have very different personalities. He is the macho, douchey (but deep down sweetheart), big armed guy. I am the petite, academic sister who is in university. He has taken the role of “cheerleader” for my education. Always there to support.

I wish I could give him more in return. He has given me so much in the past four years…security and peace knowing I can confide in him. Trip to Whistler, paying for my food, introducing me to new people, coming to all of my life events, speaking positive about me. I try to to the same in return. I let everyone around me know that I love my brother and that he is a kind, thoughtful person, regardless of his initial persona.

They say siblings are the family that will be with you the longest, as age is close. Sure, we may have 14 years separation, but I see him in my life for as long as I can see. I recently was accepted into a masters program in the city he resides in. He said to me, “nothing would make me happier than for you to live here.”

I am excited for a new chapter in life, a new city, new people..but I recognize the importance of family and keeping them close. If there’s one thing I can do for him, it’s to be his family and to be near him. I want to continue to be his friend, and to show him what family is all about again!

So I send a warm thank you to my big brother. He is one of the most important persons in my life, and I can’t wait to live nearby.

Cheers to family!

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A.

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I want to be beautiful.

I want to be beautiful.

We have needs: shelter, food, water, security. We have wants: new truck, big house, lots of money. And then we have desires. Qualities of ourselves we wish to have or achieve at some point during our lives.

I want to be beautiful.

A desire common to the majority. But before you can say you want to be beautiful, what is the definition of beautiful? Who’s to say what person is more beautiful than another? What qualities of beauty are necessary for one to acquire? Is beauty a physical trait, or maybe emotional or spiritual, or anything else you may suggest?

I want to be beautiful.

You keep repeating it like you know the answer. You can say the phrase over and over, but you literally cannot define what beauty really is, simply for the fact that you can’t even see it within yourself already. Shame on you. You want to be beautiful? Start with what’s already beautiful, and build from there.

I am beautiful.

Good. You’re not a blank canvas. As you grew, so did your body and mind. You have qualities that distinguish you from the rest, and those may be beautiful. Can you see it now? Your long eyelashes from your mother, your dimples from your father. The bounce in your step you’ve always had, your energetic personality that brings the crowd together. You see it now? Great. Now, think about those little things you do that you think are not so beautiful. How about your bitchy attitude towards your parents when you don’t get your way. Or simply the number of cowlicks in your hair that causes plenty of bad hair days? Ok. So we all have our flaws. But lets just believe that the beautiful traits outweigh the bad ones and that we all start with beauty.

I want to be beautiful.

You’ve reflected on your beautiful qualities, and your not so beautiful ones. However, you still say the same phrase, still say you want to be beautiful. You can respect that there are beautiful traits about you. Yet you want more. Fair enough. The next question then must be, what can you do to make yourself more beautiful. Well it’s actually simple. Just live. Live life by your morals, your standards, do good and do bad, experience things. Because, as you can see from the picture quote posted in this blog, that you are beautiful not just from your personality and physical attributes, but your experience, your sensitivity, your understanding of the world. It’s time to look beyond the mirror and the makeup and the compliments from the opposite sex. It’s time to look at yourself and say

I am beautiful.

Because you start beautiful, you continue to be beautiful, and when your ending arrives, you will rest in beauty and peace. You can’t quantify beauty at each stage, you just have to choose to show your beautiful traits more than your not so beautiful ones to ensure you are seen as the person you want to be.

It’s not about knowing you’re beautiful, but more so being so caught up in life that you have no time to worry about being beautiful. Only then will your beauty shine. And people will notice.

Cheers,

A.

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